The past six months of my life have been like a storm. The tides have been high, but I have been holding on to the only thing I know that has been solid in my life. My faith in Jesus Christ. He has been there for me every step of the way, and providing for me with out delay. My test is becoming my testimony. It has build His character in me. I find myself looking in the mirror of the word, and it has been showing the imperfections that I have been to blind to see.
Like the Israelite's who walked around in the desert for forty years. I found myself complaining about everything. Never satisfied with what I already had, and not realizing how much of a spoiled brat I seem to others around me. I have been put in a position to shed the mess to bring out the best in me.
For the past several years of beginning this blog, I had stop writing because I was too much into me and what I wanted to do. Not realizing my move back to where the root of my problems began would mean me coming full circle of the inner me. I have come to learn, and I am still learning that my purpose in life is not about what I want, but what God has created me to be, and that is to live in the service and perfect will of God.
I remember in 2004 when I lost everything, I asked God what was my purpose, why am I here; because nothing seem to make sense. I was in a daze of confusion and nothing was going my way; and the Holy Spirit, which I didn't know it was Him at the time, took me to Ephesians 1, and in that chapter Paul talks about how we were chosen before the foundation of the world; to be Holy and blameless before Him in love. To be in the adopted through Christ Jesus to God which is His pleasure and will. At that moment I found the beginning of my purpose, but wasn't really sure how to get there. So I continue to search not realizing what I was searching for. Each day since than has been a walk closer to Him, being transformed into His imagine,
I will admit I have messed up along the way while finding my true purpose, but I kept holding on in the midst of each and every storm. Layer by layer through each and every storm the restoration became more and more prevalent. My storms made me stronger, and they have build my character to became like the Creator who created me from he beginning.